Have You Seen Me? I’ve Been Missing.

Have you ever felt that way? Like you’re here but somewhere else? It’s like being stuck but different.

I’m stuck between two places. Two places I really like! Both those places require me to be present to be better. My full time job is a daily learning curve. One I didn’t expect to see myself in until very recently and it leaves me borderline exhausted most days. The other is right here tied to my love of my hippy dippy side and essential oils.

I am supposed to be here to educate and share and instead I find myself shying away. Not because I have lost faith or passion but instead because I am legitimately torn of where to put my energy! What little I have left lately anyway. Where did the drive go to succeed at more than one thing at once? Where did the sparkle go that took away my focus with it?

I’m sure I’m not the only person who has ever felt this way.

Both sides have the potential to change my path. Both have things I am genuinely good at and love doing. One is clearly more socially (and corporately) acceptable which honestly is the only block. I spend 40 hours a week in the construction world helping people build their futures and I spend my other fleeting moments fighting against consumerism hoping people will believe aromatherapy isn’t witch craft or poison.

The hardest part?? Aromatherapy and essential oils have been around way longer than drywall and insulation but we have been programmed to believe that the first is much less acceptable than the later. No one hassles you for your thoughts on preferred brand of caulking but you can get crucified on social media for saying Tea Tree oil has antibiotic properties. Talk about off balance.

Am I taking the easy way out? Maybe. I wouldn’t say my day walking path is easy but society tells me it is. I’ve never been one to conform or worry what others think or say about me but at the same time there’s only so much push back a person can take before they just keep their opinions to themselves. Why are the most important messages the ones that get buried these days?? Money. Greed. Consumerism. We are told daily what we should use, buy and believe and if it doesn’t profit the already wealthy it gets hidden, it gets trashed and it gets us nowhere.

My absence from here has been me pulling back from believing anyone wants to hear what I have to say. So now it may be time to find my voice again and push the naysayers down. Now it may be time to come back to life and be…

Essentially.

Me.

Thanks for following.

Which path will you choose?
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